I don’t know what to do.
This feeling is weird. I’ve had it for a long while, but it’s only
now that I have fully realised the gravity of the situation. It’s bad…
It’s really bad… and I don’t know what to do about it.
I feel blank.
Completely and utterly blank.
This blankness feels strange in me. It is like I’m some sort of robot
that can’t think any creative thoughts. My mind feels disconnected from
the being that has been giving me creative input all this time.
It’s not your typical writer’s block. Writer’s block is an excuse for
not being able to write. It usually stems from the frustrating feeling
that whatever you write is not going to be perfect, or from where an
idea simply does not want to form on the piece of paper.
I don’t know what it is, but I don’t have a single idea in my head.
It’s almost like I’m on auto-pilot and some part of me is controlling
what I’m doing and I am merely watching this all unfold in front of my
eyes. It’s horrific!
Maybe I am making up excuses in order not to write, but when I try to
think of an idea, it feels like I’m hitting a wall. I need to tear this
wall down! It’s blocking my creative flow and preventing me from
reaching my awesome state of creative nirvana. If I don’t do something
about it, then I might die horribly, but mostly emotionally, from not
being able to mix words and thoughts together to share my message to the
people of a great story.
What if story ideas did come from little elves? That would actually
explain a lot of my life if it happened to be like that. Where is my elf
or muse or daemon or creative spirit? I want my juices and I want it
now! I want to feel energy flow from my finger tips on to the keyboard
that digitally inscribes my words of storytelling onto the white digital
piece of ethereal paper.
Oh wait…
I think my daemon has come back. He floated in from the window. I
wonder where he has been. Does he know the suffering that he has put me
under? Oh well, that doesn’t matter right now. What’s important is that
he is back and ready to work…
…because I can feel an idea coming on.
How do you deal with your creative dilemmas? What methods do you use
to get yourself writing again? Please tell me. I would like to know.
Sharing knowledge is the best way to beat a universal problem.
Dante…
